Demons Within

I am not new within, but you only fear me now,

I have grown stronger and you don’t know how.

It is like in the stories when somebody die,

and all that you do is just fall down and cry.

First I was a friend – but now I will deceive,

enjoy when you break and enjoy as you grieve.

Created from nothing but grew into more,

just like the one rythm that stayed in your core.

Your heart was too silent, then I came to be,

you fought me at first, now you’ll never be free.

The world gives you labels that you can’t refuse,

your future is painted in grey or black hues.

A small kid alone with a world to create,

a small kid alone who just couldn’t wait.

You need me so much but that fact you deny,

trying to push me away with a joke or a lie.

You try to stay sane in this mad situation,

afraid of a world of eternal damnation.

Alone you will walk; with no one you speak,

alone through the streets, no tears on your cheek.

You suffer in silence, forget what you’re worth;

you’re looking downwards, just observing the earth.

Even smiling at times, but I see your true face,

you are obsessed with the dream of leaving this place.

You don’t really get why I keep you around,

you’re kept as a pet and I’m pulling you down.

So listen very closely and understand what I say,

you are not the only one being treated this way.

When I am embraced, that is when all will see,

in everyone’s life there is someone like me.


Whispers Within – Poem

I hear whispers of pain, as loud as the elephant’s roar,
My mind is a hive, only darkness lies in store.

My mind is the cage, where I am rarely alone,
There are voices of evil; a noice in this zone.

They tell me I am bad at everything I do,
They do hate me now; sadly I do so too.

So stay with me and share the pain that I bear,
Don’t show that you love me; just show that you care!

Time is running out, I can’t breathe any longer,
The evil within me is still getting stronger.

I once was a warrior – but heroes, they die,
A mind for a mind or an eye for an eye.

Now I am more of a captive, looking for light,
In a place entrapped in an everlasting night.

The voices have won – I can’t fight so I quit,
No one will ever come down in my pit.


Though the night within is yet to be beat,
You won’t stop until that one task is complete.

Even when I gave up, you came with a sword,
Free me from this prison; out of this ward!

I now root for you; I am feeling so weak,
When I try to escape, the floor will creak.

I am still a target, but I believe in your powers,
For you are stronger, and I would praise you for hours.

Then the voices are gone, yet yours is still with me,
And I listen to you always; as it makes me free.

And even if I started as one made of doubt,
You came as a savior and helped me out.